I've recently realised I have an addiction to . Is there any organisations out there that can help?

As a survivor of childhood ual abuse and a user of multiple addiction support grips, I'm in need of a local dual depency group. I live in leicester yet cannot find a group that supports this disorder. I say it as a disorder as i consider to be be on a par with alcoholism or drug addiction. I have become very desensitised to it, so much so that it has a similar effect to friends who have attended narcotics anonymous. I just don't know where to look. I'm leaning towards suicide as I have no idea what else I can do. If anyone cane give me some direction i'd really appreciate it. I just want to be normal rthaher than depend on this one particular thing. It's not a joke and whilst bmany will laugh and wish they had the same problem, I just need to find a way out of this. Thanks to anyone who can provide information.